To be succinct and private… My incubator worked me for weeks to build rapport and trust with me in my younger days, to get me to tell her a something that she would ultimately, and immediately use and weaponize against me and others.
This wasnt the first time I tried to have a relationship with her, but it did finally open my eyes and become the last. In the many many decades since, I’ve not so much as acknowledge her existence when crossing paths.
My father controlling me up to the age of 18, and preventing me from doing anything I wanted at home or at school (it was a prison, not the regular “school is boring”). The result is that I did nothing at school because I had anxiety 24 hours a day.
When I became an adult, I didn’t knew what money or taxes were, I didn’t knew that I had to take showers (because homework is more important), and I didn’t knew how to use toilet paper. I used to take a bath once every two weeks because why not instead of taking daily showers. It took me 10 years to learn basic stuff like cooking or washing my ass.
Now that he’s old and dying, he wants me to listen to his advice and help him with his phone and computer. I don’t answer to such demands. And I’m pretty sure that when he dies, I’ll only be sad for my mother, not him.
I’m glad you’re maintaining a boundary that sounds right for you. I won’t be attending my father’s funeral at all.